Big Love

I am consistently overwhelmed by how blessed I am. I just received an email from Morgan with the link to The GoMo Show website. The Boys (as they will be referred to here after) entered my life about a year ago and continue to make beautiful impressions every time I encounter them - whether it be in person, by phone, through email or website. I was unable to attend their wedding due to my inability to effectively manage the details of my life while I was in school, the after my graduation. I was too consumed in self-medication and gave no attention to sussing out the particulars of the wedding until it was too late for me to prepare. They're wedding was on the picturesque shores on the west coast of Vancouver Island at Keeha Beach. The attendants are taken to hike through the woods to the camp ground, carrying everything one requires for sustenance and comfort for 2 days and one night.
Looking though the photographs of the wedding brought me to tears. Tears of joy for the infectiousness of their love and kindness to each other and those who are near and tears for my unskillful choices that prohibited my attendance.
When I invited The Boys over to explain why I would be unable to attend, they listened with compassion and love - once again reminding me of how bless I am for the Tribe I am part of. The members of this Tribe (and I may miss some, so for those of you who are part of, apologies now): David B. (Mr. B), The Boys, Jack & Brian,Rod B., Andre and his boyfriend (who's name I keep forgetting *wince*, and Chadwick aka Hooker J.
I have had one man in my life for the past 17 years who has never faultered in his love or devotion to our friendship. It is because of him that I have made a choice to let go of my neurosis and Ego regarding blogging. I have percieved my publishing a blog as exhibitionistic act and was unable to reconcile my perception with the action. I have places pieces online that I felt a sense of pride over and gave out the links to those I loved so they could either share in my pride or have an insight to my psyche at the time.
As of Monday July 31, 2006 Allan has begun a new chapter in his life - if you want to know what it is, you'll have to read for yourself *wink*. Since a great portion of his journey will have in incommunicato for long periods of time and telephone calls rare and far between, I am going to follow his story through his blog and should he choose to, can follow mine through here.
This is going to be an interesting process for me and I'm certain my styles of writing and person expression will run the gammet for this IS the show that is Dallas.

Namaste

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